While I have today...

September 2. 2009...The text message from Tyler "911". The moment that changed our lives. the moment that brought our family together. The moment that I KNEW that prayers were answered.

(This will be a busy week. I have my parent teacher conferences on Thursday, Sept 2, 2010. I know that I will not find the time to document my feelings on that day so I am going to do it right now.)

I often think about those frightful moments. I try to remember that those moments are not the times that I should relive. Someone told me once that it was Satan that was trying to "upset" me by vividly recreating those moments. She reminded me that I should be living in the present instead of the past. I know how blessed we are. I know without a doubt that we were given a second chance to "parent" this wonderful boy. I always want to remember the power of personal prayer and of Priesthood blessings. I want to have that "comforting" feeling wrapped around our family.

A few days after Nate's accident I listened to the song "If I only had today" by Hillary Weeks. The lyrics brought me to my knees. I cried...I thanked Heavenly Father for the miracle that He had given us. I reminded myself that it only takes a second...our lives could have been so much different. I reminded myself that I was given a second chance!

It seems like I've watched a million sunsets and stared at a thousand full moons.

Sometimes it feels like I've been here forever. Sometimes it all feels brand new.

I could never count the heart beats, from the day I was born until now.

But not a single one goes unnoticed, by him who breathes life in me somehow.

But, if there were no more tomorrows. If I knew that I could not stay.

I know how I'd spend every minute. If I only had today...

I'd hold you and listen. I'd let the dishes sit in the sink. I'd tell you I loved you over and over. For once I'd just let the phone ring. And I'd remind you of forever and how our love would never change. If I only had today...

I'd wake up before the sun did. And I'd watch as you quietly sleep. I'd pray for time to move slowly knowing the moment won't keep. All the gifts that heaven has given, every blessing that has come my way, wouldn't mean anything without you. So, If I only had today...

I'd hold you and listen. I'd memorize every detail of your face. I'd tell you I loved you over and over. I wouldn't let excuses get in the way. And I'd remind you of forever and how our love would never change. If I only had today.

There is no time like the present. Life doesn't come with any guarantees. The sun will set and time won't wait. So while I have today...

I'll hold you and listen. I'll let the dishes sit in the sink. I'll tell you I love you over and over. For once I'll just let the phone ring. And I'll remind you of forever. And how our love will never change. Because I have today. Because I have today.